helping myself fly

helping myself fly

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

Brain:
Crayons
I really liked coloring as a kid
Hours 
I spent so many hours coloring
I should probably be so something better with this hour. 
Better
I just need to be better
I want to be better
How can I really be better
I can loose weight
Yes 
Yes I'll loose weight 
Days 
I usually only spend two days fully eating healthy and then I collapse
Back to the past
The pain was real and so were my friends dealing with the same issues
The sunsets really pretty
Why am I not grateful for more things in my life
Life
It's so hard 
I don't even know where I'm going and why I don't have anything to my name yet
I need to read my patriarchal blessing more
I need to write my friends on missions more
Ew
Germs on the keyboard
Germs
Germs
Germs
Germs
Wash your hands
Germs
Germs
Germs
Germs
Germs
Wash your hands
Eat something healthy
Come on eat something healthy
Go to the store and buy your family groceries
Save that money for savings
Help your family
Provide for yourself
And save for your future
Help your family 
Spend more time with Hannah 
Talk to Lishelle
Stop touching that and then touching your mouth
Ugh my socks are dirty and I just got in bed
Now I need to wash my sheets
I wish I had more money to buy the stuff like sheets and decorations
I just wish I already had a family
But I still want to live in the moment
Moment
Stop thinking about how dirty the carpet is and just be
Bee
B
Be
How will I spell that when I name my daughter
Will I have a daughter
Will I have kids
Oh my stomach hurts
Something's wrong with me
I'm sick
I'm fine
I'm fine
I'm fine
My Brain feels heavy
Brain