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Prompt #4: What is your favorite work of art? What do you love about it? (6/13/15)

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The art that didn't need to happen.
Like me choosing sunlight on this page while I write in a meadow next to my best friends.
And I didn't even mean to set my converse down like the way I want my heart to fall in my first heartbreak.
The plane perfectly pictured in between the not-so-even trees.
There's cracks in the dirt that make me wonder how ants can take on the world where cracks are their canyons.
The canyon and how God and Christ spent 6 days creating nature and this world. I love that.  I love that he'd know we'd evolve to cities, gas, money, gas, cities and that we'd need a love for art that can't be drawn or written perfectly. I love rain on car windows and the inspiration I'm filled with just watching each drop.
Mostly I love the art people are, and the things we can create. and the way we can love. Either way I need to start loving myself because I know God created me too.
And I didn't need to realize that writing this but I did
The art that didn't need to happen.

Prompt #3: The Ways I'll Get Closer To Who I NEED To Be

I don't want to live a normal life to the people around me. I don't want to care what anyone thinks other than God, and I don't want to stay up late messing up his plan for me anymore. I'm tired of not doing what I know I should be and separating my spirit and body more and more everyday. I want to be the women that supports her man, and helps him live to his potential. I want to wait and let the things that happen later actually happen later because they'll be and mean so much more then. I want to be the girl who finds time for work, school, sleep, exercise, thoughtfulness, fun, and studying spiritually and educationally everyday. I want to make Sundays full of service and each night filled with thoughts toward Thee rather then what I shouldn't and should've done. I want to give enough to my parents and still have enough to support my needs and my future family needs. Which means I want to be the girl with a budget and the girl who cares more about money for her family then the girl who cares so much about her outsides. but I still want to have style. I want to have style because wearing lipstick will always be apart of me. The same way I'll want to get something for myself every now and again. I want to feel comfortable with tears when things get to hard or sad for me to hold back, and the way i'll get there is being more of the me I know I should be. So here's to my goals and the chances I have to change again and be better everyday through the atonement of Jesus Christ.

1. Sleep 8 hours a night
2. Pray every morning
3. Exercise
4. Work/School
5. Smile and be thoughtful
6. Homework
7. Fun
8. Spiritual Study
9. Pray
10. Be in bed around 12

Prompt #2: You are the winds interpreter. What is it saying? (5/22/15)

If you only knew how planned I was for you.
Just stop the worrying and stressing and think about it.
Think about God creating your cheeks soft & firm to feel my breeze
That you'd have the opportunity of life and feeling my gusts comb through your hair.
Do you know that I've been placed for everywhere you've felt me? Right now here in the mountains I'm placed here for you.
I'm asked to help the clouds let go of the rain on the days you just want to cry because he knows you can't leak any extra water.
And it's painful for me to create loss like any tsunami affecting lives, but I mix up the waters because I see the way he loves you and wants you to grow through your pains.
I know this from brushing passed your brother's cheeks as he sacrificed for you.


TODAY:
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Prompt #1: List of Advice

1. Bring a jacket wherever you go

2. What really matters is how you feel about what your doing and where you're going. Just focus on setting goals and pleasing God. His and your opinions are all that matter. 

3. Trust in good. If you have a good thought then do it. Good things help people more than you think.
4. Tell them how you feel because you never know what will come of it.
5. Let whatever's keeping you from serving and liking someone go. It's only hurting you to hate.
6. Read and pray and work hard everyday and you'll feel good
7. If you're trying to be healthy: The second dessert will never satisfy you like the first
8. Tell your parents you love them a lot more than you already do, or ask them for advice, and take into consideration what they say. Cuz they need that.
9. People have better intentions then you think they do.
10. You're doing better than you think you are.
11. Push yourself to be vulnerable and do the things you're scared of. It makes life and the stories about it better.
12. Be honest. As honest as you can.
13. Connect your body and spirit everyday.
14. Attend the temple regularly
15. Don't get into habits of baking and making the same things. Try new cuz you never know what you're missing out on.
16. Write letters to people. They can keep them, and there proof of anything you want them to be proof of. Love, forgiveness, sadness, It all.
17. Prove yourself to yourself.
18, Work hard in school cuz you'll regret it when you don't.
19. Be kind to yourself. Tell the mean thoughts to leave, and welcome the good ones more.

HB text to the fastest texter backer

Mel is my first call. My go to for everything life. It fathoms me, honestly can't begin to comprehend how she doesn't see how absolutely close to the Savior that she constantly is. And I get to say that because the amount of times she has said something that only the spirit knew I needed is endless. Mel became my friend in the ninth grade and my life was forever changed for the best after that. Mel is my hero. My greatest example. She is as close as it gets to perfection inside and out. She reminds me of all the great women in the scriptures that you read about. Her soul is made up of entirely all great things. Selfless. Humble. Faithful. She is it all. Yet she sees so little of it. Shes frustrating in that way. She is sass. She is forgetfulness. And she pushes people away when she needs them the most. She's sensitive and takes things to heart (with careful consideration). She doesn't give up and is stubborn in that way. Her stress and worry comes from watching out for others feelings. That is something that will never become weak in her. Many times I've just looked over at Mel to see her admiring and striving to understand the world around her. She's grateful. Mel is my support and encouragement for better things. Mel's gift is her selfless-ness and genuine-ness. She brings about miracles. Or in my case was one for me as she came into my life at a time I needed someone exactly who she was. She is the friend you search an entire lifetime for and I feel blessed to of only had to look for 15ish years, here's to eternity of friendship.  Mel is my forever friend. 

That's what she wrote about me cuz she has the ability to make everyone sound better than the way they see themselves, and she does it without even knowing. She's the person who stays up stressing about the things she needs to get done and the things she needs to do for God. She the person you feel ok crying in front of because she's not afraid of showing how she feels and how the risk of being vulnerable can create wonderful things. Probably the person you'll text and ask advice about guys, or school, or style, or gospel, or life. Partially because you know she'll be there. She's the most dependable person I had in my life all of highschool. 

 She's the person you want to make proud cuz she never forgets to share the good she sees in you. Her faith is that of the people who have been there before. People written about in scriptures, stories, and novels. She's the unnoticed hero who makes hard things possible by the inspired words she clearly states and feels. She says I'm stubborn with her equally stubborn traits 

cuz she has her ways, ways that get her places everyday! She's the go getter, and the fastest texter backer cuz she knows what it feels like to wait for a response. Or good things to happen. That's why she's the person you'll say is kind, compassionate, thoughtful, considerate, genuine, adventurous, and all things of hope. She's my best of friends. So I hope her Bday helps her feel somewhat of how she deserves.